i have arrived...... wait a sec.. don't you have to depart to actually arrive?? i never knew i even departed.
i, like many others find that many of my "goals" or "standards" of sucess are heavily influenced by the opinions of those around us. anyway that has been what i lived for many years.
today this is much less true than it has been in the past, truthfully i still bow to the influence of others to some small extent. but more often than not my measure of sucess.. and thusly contentment is determined by myself, and no one else.
a lot of people chase the "big questions" in life such as " why are we here" or "is there a greater purpose to my life"
i submit, that it is not in fact the "big" questions that truly fulfill us, rather it is the "smaller" questions that illustrate the truth of our lives.
for those of you who don't know, i am a recovering addict (just celebrated 21 yrs continous sobriety), and as with many addicts have led a life long search for "something better", something of "greater meaning". but most of all i have been desparately searching....
today i find i am at peace..... a soul deep peace, literally as if my very essence is wrapped in a dryer freshly warmed giant blue terrycloth towel (think swaddled).
i have learned to STOP and look at my surroundings, and while there are a few things i might DESIRE, everything i NEED is right here around me.
all the crap in my past.. both good and bad.. the sum total of my experiences to date make up who i am today... and here is the key folks.... TODAY i like me.... i am happy being me..... for the first time in my life i am truly comfortable in my own skin...
it's kinda sad in a way... it has taken me 37 years to become an infant again...
hah!
take a hard look at your life and ask yourself, if you have truly discovered the freedom of just being .. you..... if not.. then depart... take a trip.. find yourself, then come back, and you too will have arrived.
vade in pace
-dawg
